No sooner do we think we have it all figured out in terms of treatments, medications, workload, lifestyle adjustments, exercising, diet, etc. and WHAM....in comes the doubt. Controlling doubt and second guessing is a tool you need to add to the ever enlarging RA toolbox!
Where does it come from? I think it stems from the fact that RA is so unpredictable that it keeps us off balance just trying to achieve some sense of stability and routine. Flares seem to come from nowhere, striking without warning. That very fact makes us hesitant to go forward with decisions that could mean pain, sleeplessness, lack of mobility, decreased quality of life and on and on. Sometimes it just seems easier and even more sensible to not make any choices rather then risk making one that could bring on a dreaded flare.
I find myself not being as decisive as I prided myself on being for so many years. And I know the root of that is firmly entrenched in the pain, etc. that could result in making the wrong one - be it a new treatment possibility, a new exercise option, a new job, whatever. I am loathe to make changes these days and find myself second guessing every choice I face. What I do know it that I need to break that cycle if I am to continue to successfully manage RA.
The truth is that second guessing CAN be a good way to examine all the many options we face in our management of RA. Perhaps it is not only good but necessary to question the choices, the decisions, the options and then make an informed but distinct decision. The trick is to not let it get too extreme....
We need to learn that trusting that our years of dealing with RA and its many facets will serve us well as we make choices. Tap into the years of experience that we all bring to the table instead of shying away from it.
Questioning for the sake of questioning is not healthy or beneficial. It should always have a purpose, a time frame and a final decision at the end of the process. In that way you are in control of the second guessing so that in the end you are the master of your destiny and as much as possible in control of RA and not the other way around!